| okay so i haven't been on here since my last entry so if i haven't commented back to you thats why. but me and jordan broke up about two weeks ago, it stinks, i hate it. i still like him alot. he told me that he liked it better when we were just friends, but i have a feeling that his dad might have out that in his head, cause he's the one that made us break up, and when we did jordan was really upset and was all like saying that we were going to get back together, but he didn't know how long it would be but it probley would have been after he graduates. i really hope we get back together though, i saw alex and her mom at the mall and alisha told me that every time jordan likes a girl alot his parents cut it off. so i don't know, i still feel like jordan likes me, but that could be just me wanting that. i like him so much, everyone liked us together, last saturday at the bible quizzing tournament in athens camille and jade were saying that they wanted us to get back together and that they really liked it when we were together, and that means alot to me that they even payed attention to us, but they were saying that they thought we were perfect together. im just really torn over this, i don't know if i should forget about him, or try to anyways, or if i should hang on to it but not tell him, or what. i don't know, i know that i have to wait and see what God wants, but untill then what do i do? i hate this, and when me and jordan were together we were both doing everything we were supposed to be doing in church. i just really don't understand why his dad would do that, i still have a really strong feeling though that his dad put in his head that we were better off just friends. cause i know jordan didn't feel like that before we broke up, he didn't say anything about that untill like a week or so after we had broke up. iv prayed and prayed and prayed about this so much, and i still feel that it wasn't his decision to not get back together later. enough of this sad crap.
sunday we stayed up at church all afternoon as we usually do, we being me, clint, donnie, summer, and jason.
it was fun i guess, me and clint left and went to a flea market that we used to go to on sunday afternoons just to play with the stuff they had there, and then we went to radio shack and the to the dollar tree and we played with some of the toys there, then to this big gravel empty space and he would go kinda fast and the turn the wheel and pull the emergency brake. it was alot of fun, we used to do that all the time when we were together. i hope he doesn't think i like him again, some of the little kids at church have been saying stuff about me and him being together, LIES ALL LIES! lol. no but we are friends, good friends, good friends with privlages, jk. we are good friends, untill he gets on my nerves then i don't know him! anyways im going to go now. i don't know how long it will be before im back on so if i don't comment back it's not because i don't like you. its because i hate you. jk. God bless, keep on keepin on,
beth d. |
i hope he dosen't. and also one of my friends brothers who is like 23 and not in church likes me and keeps trying to get me to "hang out" with him alone which i know is a bad idea and im not going to. but he doesn't seem to understand. 
i don't know what the deal is all of a sudden with these boys that im not interested in trying to date me i guess im just irrisistable
! lol.
i like jordan ALOT! we get along perfectly. we have been talking for either 6 or 7 weeks now. last night i went to anthony r. house with jordan ree caleb jud and david, and we were all in ree's car me jordan ree and caleb were in the back seat and jud and david were in the front it was sooooo crowded but it was fun though. ree had to lay across my lap part of the time cause there was police everywhere, at this one road we thought it was a road block and we were all flippin out but then it wasn't praise God. anthony killed a possum and then through it in a fire
uh i mean
thats ok i dont mind.
